She's disappointed there wasnt anymore Donuts~POST
..kinda hectic today,today no work.So went follow my mom to the vet to send our Puppy for a check up.Nah.our dog is ok.juz went for a fur/skin check up.thats all..well..i had lotsss of smses today from different people..haiz..most were Encouraging while some were juz cursings for me.Sadden by it.really saddened..
Had smses from alottt of ppl..and Juz wanna say Thanks to Gena alot for encouraging me and being there to accompany and talk to me~hehe.Cause she wanted me to go to Fuchun band to face the problems i have with some of them.so yea.Some messages were juz really damm hurtful luh.haiz..still,yea.thanks to gena alot for this day.she really encourage me alot.
Haiz..yea,my mom send me to JP and NOT jurong east where i can soo easily take the mrt and go fuchun(-.-) haiz..so yea.went took train luh..arrive at marsiling..walked..cross bridge..walked..and yea.Fuchun sec.Dont get me wrong luh,iam going there because i be helping to teach sec1s and i need to practice as well.so yea..well band and such..scold here and there..playing nice and fun..someone still pretends to be nice when hes actually not.and yea.band ended..met a new person,Madiha.shes the Ex-senior of fuchun band.so yea.kinda cool luh she.so yea.went home.
well,my title is Disappointment.haiz..well i wanna is because,for those band members reading this,well...i juz wanna ask,Am i a lousy french horn player?..am i not smth to be called as a fine hornist juz because i cant sight read that well yet?..cause..its juz beeen troubling me this whole day..when someone is also saying "how can u play for the performance when you cant even sight read?pathetic."
.....well,maybe i am.maybe iam not...but yea..abit disappointed if iam really that standard..i mean,when i was sec2,me&nurul(2 of us only fhorns that time) really struggled our butts off to form this French horn section to become what is it today,yet,it was also helped with our friend Nuz who came later june or such but still,she did contributed alot.
I guess...to some ppl,i juz have a big ego to call myself a good fhorn player.but you will NEVER hear me say/type that iam the BEST or PERFECT horn player of all.cause,there is no such thing as that...but still...iam juz sadden by why some ppl wld still say that to me...Yea,i cant sight read that good..iam still somewhere in between difficulty reaching High G and A..but there is a word called Practice.and i juz hope this word can penetrate into those critic's brain.cause,No musician will call himself PERFECT when mostly they wld have SOMEONE to teach them.so yea....haiz..peace~
