My Dad and Mommy....POST
..1stly,i juz wana say,iam so thankful to have my Mom and dad with me.i guess,i also wanna say,i also love having my brother,sister,my grandparents,my Maid and my dog with me...i juz love them all to even think of taking them for granted..Juz Typing this post,most of you may not know it..but tear are rolling down from my eyes..continously..drippining..rolling down to my cheeks..until they drip hanging from my chin..as i even post this Letter...saying,"I love you" to everyone,i love out there..Here goes..
Today,went to JJC to pay them $12 for the Camp tutti that i participated.It was fun going there.But before i even wnet there,Mom and me were at Boon Lay market and yea..was fun going with her..i mean,everything was fine and such luh.nice weather..not many crowds..quality of food were good.so yea..but when we were going bac home,Mom had suddenly "trigger" her back problem.You see,my mom has this thing in her back or her backbone.I think its a called a "Slip Disc"..so yea..this wasnt there first time she felt pain.Today..she had one slip disc incident...at first,when we came home,she was stilllllll ok as she was bearing with the pain.as in i thought there was nothing to be Alarmed of,so yea,i suddenly juz went off to JJC.
After i had done my busines with the JJC band ppl,i decided to go home..i called my mom when i was at Boon lay and asked her if she wanted "hokkien mee" as i would buy it for her and me so we could share it.so yea..i did.Upon coming home..and minutes later,my mom called me...
I went to my room and looked at ther phyiscal state of where she was going...i was SOO crying inside myself when i saw he statet.She was in deep pain..she was juz lying her back to the bed..i mean,as in juz lie down when u sleep.and she was also trying to get off the bed and she asked me to help her..i stood there and gave her my hand for support and for her to stand up..and yea...my Grandma was inside the room too..she was crying to see my own mom that cant even bear to stand up..i mean,their "Mothers and daugthers" as well rite?..so yea..i DID saw my grandma cry before she even left the room.And we were like...i juz loved my my mom soo much that i cant bear to see her suffering in pain and it was ALL JUZ TRYING TO STAND UP...cant YOU imagine yourself or one fo your family members who has difficulity standing up because of their Backbone or smth?...
Yea...i didnt REALLY "cried" infront of her.Now I juz woken up from my slp and typing this,"I cried at my sleep".Most of ye think it maybe baby stuffs.yet,iam juz being true to myself and cry because i felt pain when i see my mom suffering like that..and from that moment,i felt and thought to myself, "what if my mom juz "Go" someday?..maybe 2mrw?..maybe juz next year 2009?..cause..it be very difficult for me to accept that truth,when iam still not even ready to lose a love one...
So....to all of you out there...please please,no matter how much ppl has hate you or given you anger and hatred,reply back with "love" and try to forgive to forget their bad ways...cause..you may think u HATE them..but once they are gone,for sure i'll know...you'll miss them and you would want them back in your lives again...and to even love them...once again...
"Dont take anyone for granted..cause..we only have ONE life..and that life may not even tell when we're gonna die,but yet,juz treat everyday a special "GIFT from god.cause thats why they called it everyday is a Gift from God,that makes it a "present" to all of us...
PAST...PRESENT..AND FUTURE..
Only everyday,can be a GIFT cause its called the PRESENT..
"To Genesis"
"I love you,yet you may not reply back with the same words ive juz said..but still,it takes me great amount of love to even care about you when all this time..you juz make me mad,angry and sad,i still try my best,to love you....cause,i dont want to take you for granted.....i never want to do."
